Saturday, February 4, 2012

This is a battle, and it’s your final last call...

So one week everything is absolutely perfect. Then the next week you ignore my messages and calls. How does this happen? And a better question would be, what did I do even?!
I guess we just don’t understand each other anymore. I thought we had something good going on but I guess I was wrong.
Maybe you’re at school, maybe not. I’m sure in a week or so you’ll text me, you always seem to.
I tried not caring about your “party” side and it was pretty easy for the most part. Hopefully this blows over soon…
I don’t feel like I did anything wrong. If anyone did, it’s you probably. I mean I don’t drink and party every night like you. At least I’m mature and know when to party and when it’s time to grow up and be serious about life. I know what I want to do with my life, do you? Probably not. I have the rest of senior year planned, I’ve chosen the college I want to attend this coming fall, and I already have decided what I want to major in. My guess is that you haven’t thought about any of the things, well minus going to OTC. I’m growing up and leaving behind all the childish things. I’m maturing but I feel like you’re not.
I know what I want to do with my life and I’m not about to let anyone hold me back. I want things to work out with us but I can’t be the only one trying. It takes two. I know you said that in a relationship, the right one, things should just work without having to try. That’s not entirely true.
Let’s work together. It can’t be that hard. It’s time to grow up though, that’s for sure.

Just an ordinary girl…

She’s just an ordinary girl wanting to be accepted by others around her. She’s been through many struggles; her best friend always had her back. But God has always gotten her through and it has only made her stronger in the end.

Of course there is a guy.  She dated him for eight months; they were deeply and madly in love with each other.  But she had one weakness that he couldn’t handle much longer… She had a hard time trusting. This wasn’t her fault. She wanted to trust him but couldn’t let her wall down again. Not after being cheated on once or twice before by her ex.
Her weakness caused arguments, but neither gave up. It was tough but they made it, together. He promised her forever, a future, and to never let go no matter how hard it got. Then one day in May, he gave up…
They had a bright and perfect future ahead but he couldn’t give her one final chance. His excuses: “I’ve already given you tons, I don’t want to hold you back your senior year, you’ll get a second chance sometime.”
Crazy enough, she believed him, even after another ex-boyfriend of hers said the same thing. But she waited around all summer, he never came back. She tried dating others but something was always wrong with them.
Then one day, he found someone else. She was hurt, devastated, and couldn’t stop crying. Even though everyone told her, and she herself knew that she’s better than this, and better than him. She held her head high at school, and then she saw them together… Her head fell.
She was just an ordinary girl that is torn up inside hiding it daily. She goes through life, with her close friends helping her along the way, and praying constantly.